Putih dalam Kenangan

Sudah 2 hari Putih tiada. Dalam hati ini perasaan bercampur baur. Rasa kosong, rasa sedih, rasa bersalah.

Tiap kali pintu pagar di buka, mata tercari-cari Putih kerana selalunya Putih akan berlari lari datang menyambut kami pulang. Setiap pagi Putihlah yang selalu mengejutkan kami, dia akan minta dirinya di belai, di gosok, seringkali sampai meleleh leleh air liur Putih kerana sedap di belai ayahnya. Sekarang bila masuk ke rumah masih terbau Putih, rasanya macam kehilangan anak... Putih baru berumur setahun. Kesian dia... Tiada lagi peneman saya waktu menjemur kain, waktu menggosok baju.... dimana mana terbayang Putih.....

Waktu Putih sakit kami sekeluarga pun masing masing masih demam, tak sempat pun nak betul betul melayan Putih, kemudian emak sakit, seminggu tu kami berulang alik ke Johor. Kami perasan Putih tak sentuh sangat makanan nya.. hari selasa kami mengambil keputusan untuk hantar Putih ke klinik sebab Putih nampak begitu lemah, Putih seperti cuba memberitahu kami sesuatu, ngiau nya semakin lemah...

Diklinik suhunya dah mencecah 40.4 darjah celcius. sangat tinggi. Setelah 2 hari dia dikata kan kena demam kuning, setiap hari kami menjenguknya... Dia memang lemah. Segala usaha telah di buat, masuk air, injection, makan disuap, akhirnya pada pagi Sabtu 3 Julai, waktu kami menjenguknya, sesampai aje di klinik, Dr Putih kata mereka dah cuba sedaya upaya tapi Putih tak dapat di selamatkan.....Sayunya hati melihat Putih kaku tak bernyawa...macam tak percaya kami sekeluarga boleh sesedih ini. Tapi memang Putih dah jadi part of the family. Putih anak kami yang bongsu. Setahun Putih bersama kami membawa begitu banyak kebahgiaan dalam hidup kami. Selamat tinggal Putih. Ibu sayang Putih.

kehilangan putih

.saya terkejut kerana hari itu ibu kata putih nampak lemah .ayah membawa nya ke klinik .tidak lama selapas hari itu ibu kata putih meninggal saya terkejut dan sedih saya teringat peristiwa yang manis bersama nya setiap hari dia sentiasa bermain dengan saya dan adik -adik saya terus mencari gambar nya saya tak menjumpai nya saya tanya ibu ibu kata dalam komputer saya bukalah akhirnya saya jumpa saya letak nya menjadi background

adikku

Ally ada tiga adik seorang cute seorang kasar seorang lagi semput ssshhhhh........................ dua orang tu terlalu suka bergaduh seorang lagi terlalu garang . pening kepala hei .......

kat rumah tu dah jadi studio lawan2 lak.Tapi kalau kata nak beli mainan hilang semua keminatan main lawanlawan . isha lak buat semua benda yang boleh buat kami tergelak atau memarahi mereka .

firas suka kepada ikan, farhan suka kucing ,isha suka barney!

cutisekolah jun 2010

Sekarang dah start cuti sekolah Ally ikut mama gi kl biasa la jalan jalan . Ally duduk katPNB DARBY PARK. mama kerja kat area hotel itu kul 5 baru balik .kita duduk kat hotel tu buat apa-apa je .


Hari khamis baru balik .mmmm kat rumah tiba tiba semua demam(kecuali ibu) terkena virus hi hi.......!

Is this fair?

It's seem and been a long time since I wrote anything in here. A lot in my mind but so limited time to write it down and share with the..whoever reading or will read this blog. Not because I'm really busy but because the fact that the only one computer in my room have became the favourite friend of most of the 'troop'.

The 'General'(the daddy) has been so engrossed with this one forum that he joint recently, and when he is not in front of the computer all the rest will takes turn to use this phenomenal gadget. Aleeya will searching the YouTube for more video about ghost and mystery, Farhan will looking for 'bitaban battle browl(I'm very sure I get it all wrong) I can't really remember what he called it. and even Firas who can't even spell Youtube will whining and asking people to type for him in Youtube words like 'Shark fishing', 'crocodile', and guess what? he has to be dragged before anyone else can use the computer!!

So, it will leave Ibu and Ariesya to do those conventional things together like searching for something to eat or reading those Goldilocks-kind of book over and over again or just lying on the bed watching TV while breast-feed Ariesya and soon drifted to sleep. There goes another day...

I need to do something about it. The only time I've got is- like today, this moment - while everybody at school and Jumaat prayer. *sigh*

So probably this is the time for me - I guess. That is if I'm at home, if not , have to wait another Friday le....

We take things for granted

I've been blessed with a very understanding husband.

For that, I thank Allah.

I've been blessed with adorable and 'normal' kids.

For that, I thank Allah.

I've been blessed with a peacefull life.

For that, I thank Allah.

Here is what Mother Theresa have to say about doing good..

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;Forgive them
anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;Be kind
anyway.
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;Be honest and frank
anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;Build
anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good
anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the
world the best you've got anyway
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God; it was never
between you and them anyway.

Ariesya

Ariesya's faces....

She really makes our days with her smiles, her actions and even her tantrums....

Aleeya

While in car, I and hubby were discussing on what plate no. we should use for our new car. From Negri's plate to Johor's plate. For NS it is NBH 5+++ , we were thinking to get no 92 just like our old car's no. So it's a long way to wait in Negri. We are trying to get Johor's number which is now JMC . Hubby said JMC would stand for Johor Motor Club.. Nothing to do with us.. I told him..Suddenly Aleeya from behind said that we should get WAH 92.

I asked her why WAH? She told us that A would stand for Aleeya & Ariesya and F would stand for Farhan & Firas...So I asked her back.. W stand for what? Did you know what she said?
W is for korang le ( she's referring to us- her mom and dad - how dare!!) when we looked puzzled.. she said W for WARGA EMAS!!! We just turn 40 girl!!!!

We really had a good laugh!!!LOL

Happy Chinese New Year

Today is 15 Feb, last saturday Ajid got married.. Pak Teh and all the family were very busy.. of course... I helped out what ever we can... Every body in the family, I'm sure will feel happy with the addition of a new member and addition of the family ties....but I myself does not feel that happy.. not anything to do with the bride...but on our family ties...

Mak Cik and the whole family didn't turn up...why? the root I think goes back even before last Raya...Linda tersinggung with what Mak Teh's asked her and decided not to visit Pak Teh during Hari Raya. and because of that Pak Teh also double 'hurt' and decided not to see the new born Linda's baby...and also invite Mak Cik only through phone when she came herself to all the neigbouring house ( I presume).

Mak Cik 'in return' decided not to turn up during Ajid's wedding... After this what next? Pak Teh will not turn up during Alan's wedding? It's really pity...How come they forgot all the ties and the bond that once there between us. As from my view, since Atuk, Wan, Mak and Pak Cik pass away we are not the same anymore...

Pak Teh and Mak Teh may be a bit outspoken, but I know, inside, they are good - every nieces and nephews should have known this by now... but aren't all 'mums' and 'dads' like that?...

I really hope that things will turn out well.. May Allah shows the way.. Amin..

Sick

30.8.2006 -That day we have packed everything on the roof of our Citra for the holiday only to picked the kids at Qaifarah and to shoot to Terengganu. Aleeya have gone already with abah and mak (arwah mak) . When we arrived at Qaifarah, Farhan's breathing was so bad that we can see a hole right under the middle of his throat each time he inhaled. We really thought that it is just a normal flu and cough. but when we saw that his stomach was like a big wave in the middle of the ocean... we immediately took him to the clinic nearby...

The doc scolded us for not bringing him earlier..he then gave a referal letter to bring Farhan to Hospital. We went to Columbia Hospital and immediately he was warded.. there goes our holiday plan... Anyway for the sake of not wanting to dissapoint Farhan and little Firas that time, we decided to book 1 big ward and all of us pretending we're staying at a hotel except that this hotel have only one bed, so the rest have to sleep on the floor... what a day...no 3 days exactly...

Farhan is an asthmatic child which we only found out that day...

Happy New Year

It is not too late to wish Happy New Year to .. obviously to my self..

Ally now in standard 3, still in the old school - SJKC Ma Hwa.
Farhan starts his year one happily having kakak in the same school. He's having 3 homeworks on 3rd day in school!
Firas moved to a new kindergarten which is nearer to Qaifarah, so it's easy for us not to have to travel sending him all the way back to Taska in the afternoon.
Ariesya stays in Qaifarah...She loves there...

New Year Resolution? The usual one.. 1. Get Fit 2. Lose Weight 3. Learn Something New 4. I Want to Get Organised.
Again ! Come on... Its been so many years... This year I'll turn 40.. year in year out.. nothing change..?

I read this in Reader's Digest...be SMART

S is for specific. instead I want to lose weight , set a specific one like 'I want to lose five kilogram'
M is for measurable . Define a goal eg I aim to go to gym an hour 3 days a week.
A is for Achievable. If you've never exercised don't ain to compete in Olympics!
R is for relevant. Choose a right goals
T is for time-conscious. be clear on how much time you are giving yourself to achieve your goal.

No wonder I never achieve the reso..

OK. Let's start new...

S - I want to lose 5 kg
M - to exercise 15 mins everymorning at 5 am. plus no dinner on weekdays
A - every morning? no no let makes at least 4 days a week.
R - Relevant? Sure. or else I have to start buying new clothes
T - Will revise every 6 month.

Good Luck to me..

Happy Anniversary

Today is the 14th years we have been married to each other. It seems only yesterday the sweet courtship moment which I cherish so much where it is so easy to love him and the saying is true that the times went so fast when we are having fun.


14 years of a lot happy and sad moment that we both went through with one goal in mind that is to sail through our marriage for bad and for good.


I can't forget 1997 - our stillborn first baby - we name him Muhammad Farid bin Mahadi. We both cried quietly in hospital's ward holding each other hand... and a long-4 years after that, we cried again at the same Hospital when Nur Aleeya was born but this time, out of joy...again 2, 4 years after that... is history.

Happy Anniversary dear..